Pen my thoughts and feelings so that they become memories should I one day lose my memory or... This page may not be read now but many things dont get discover until they are no longer available/around.
Thursday, 15 October 2009
If...
Even if i were fat, i can still get a girlfriend.
Even if i cant cook, I have someone to cook for me.
Even if i dont put on make up, i can still go out to have fun.
I can even choose to stay out late, stay over at my Gf's place or not send her home when i dont feel like doing so.
I do not worry about losing anything regardless the number of girlfriends i have. All i need to do is "play is safe" (Guys, dont you agree?)
Isnt it wonderful?
A man also sees things differently. He can neglect this and that, yet his girlfriend still stand by him. He is at fault and he can speak loudly to his girlfriend. He may care but he has the excuse of being non-expressive!
A man has all reasons to do whatever he wants to do. Yet a woman is exactly the opposite.
If only i was born one too... ... (but i dont have the intention to turn lesbian)
Tuesday, 29 September 2009
A disappointing F1 Rocks, 24 September 2009
I attended the first performance on 24th September 2009. I left home with high level of enthusiasm and passion. One of the main reason was also because I could get to see my idol, Jacky Cheung perform again.
We arrived at Fort Canning Park about 6pm. Without proper signages (First disappointment), we found ourselves together with a whole batch of people standing at the wrong stage.
"The main stage is below", we were told by one of the ushers.
After much climbing and walking, we finally found the main stage and settled ourselves in nice front seats (seated on the grass patch). The concert didnt start till 7plus (second disappointment).
The first group to perform was "Da Mouth". I was very impressed with Ai-sha's performance - 'WONDER-FULL' Body and I am certain she made many men Drool and Bleed that night.
Second on the list was "SodaGreen". When I heard them (or rather just Wu Qing Feng) sing during their sound check, I was captivated by his voice. He has a very unique voice - very impressive! The setback encountered during their performance was a sudden power cut during a fast track (Third disappointment). I read from Cruz's blog that the management even stopped the Emcees from going on stage to pacify the audience...
Oh, talking about the emcees, despite the many disappointments (which i have yet to finish ranting), the consolation to the concert was having Cruz and JiaHui host the event. Nice!
Along came A-mei which was the greatest disappointment of all. Her microphone wasnt working well when she sang her first song (Fourth disappointment). Subsequently, the songs chosen for the concert were too new. It makes the performance more like an album promotion instead of F1 ROCKS (Fifth disappointment). I was actually eager to hear her because I have not heard her live but I must say the performance was a let down.
The sixth disappointment is the most unforgivable one; We waited for a long long time before Jacky finally came on stage. In fact, we had to wait for some time after each performance. This last one made us wait aimlessly for almost 40mins before they eventually set up the band and lightings for Jacky. During this long interim, the management did not bother to send the hosts out to entertain the crowd (Seventh disappointment). We stood there like FOOLs, feeling warm and frustrated yet we had to be patient as it was our idol who will be appearing NEXT. From Cruz's blog, Jacky was unhappy with the delay too!
Fortunately, Jacky delivered a stunting performance with his sexy moves and of course his voice. I Like! I Love!
My last notes: I hope the management of the concert can do a thorough review so that F1 Rocks 2010 will have Less/No (if possible) hiccups. Im sure they would have received lots of feedback forms about the disappointments (the tickets didnt come cheap and it is only fair that the audience deserve a satisfactory reply).
Casting the unhappy issues aside, enjoy the video below:
Thursday, 24 September 2009
Days of Unemployment
I have been spending my time at home cooking, watching HongKong Dramas, job hunting and also thinking of what i want in my life.
However, no matter how hard I think, I feel that I cant achieve the 'ideal' kind of life that I always yearned for. I dont know if it's too perfect for achievement or am I just too lazy. Or am I afraid to face the reality because there needs to be major changes in my current life? I have no answers to these terrifying thoughts.
Every night when I go to bed, I imagine that I would not wake up the next morning. I think I would suffer from some heart attack or some disease and just 'Go' like that. I fear, because there are so many things in life that i have not experienced. I feel like talking to people but everytime I meet people, I dont feel like talking.
I am now watching a drama on psychology and I wonder if I am actually suffering from some mental illness that I am not aware of.
Actually, there are lots of things that I can do during this period of time but I dont know where to start, too lazy to start and feeling hopeless to start. I hide myself at home apart from going for interviews, spend my day like an aimless person dying for my phone to ring (f0r a job opportunity).
I seem to have lost myself. I feel I am not who I used to be. Over the years, I am losing my confidence and all I gain is unwanted Fats in my body!
I need a new life, I need a new begining, I need to step out of this horrible situation that Im in now (all thanks to J!)
Sunday, 16 August 2009
Freedom!
And now I spend my time at home searching for a new nest where I will have the opportunity to learn and grow. Life has never been so peaceful, not for the past year at least.
During this recuperation period, there are lots of things that I need to accomplish and here are some of them:
- Clean my room (again)
- Clear my bags
- File my statements
- Weekday shopping
- Colour my hair
For a start, I did my nails (fingers and toes). Had to choose a lighter shade in case I receive any calls (good news).
I also made my first attempt to perm my hair. Not exactly the first time because I did it once during my Bro's wedding but that was temporary.
The results were Fantastic and I love it. Received quite a number of "Thumbs Up" for it. All thanks to Anson from Actpoint and also his assistant for the great work. Not only were they professional, they were detailed in explaining every step. Because I was recommended by Tat, I was treated like a VIP.
Nice!
Here's the change at a glance:
Then just I thought I could enjoy the weekend shopping, catching a movie or have fun, Tat fell really ill. He slept from Fri night till Sun morning. He had viral fever and his temperature went as high as 39.8 degree Celsius. I was telling him the whole time not to 'burn' his brain and end up forgetting me. I also made sure I had ice pack on his forehead the whole night so that his little brain is safe from 'fire'... hehe.
Thank God (and me) that he is feeling OK now. At least he tells me he is hungry! Hopefully the fever doesnt come back.
That's all for now. Hopefully I have good news to update in my next entry.
Sunday, 10 May 2009
When Bomb meets AK 47
No doubt the bomb creates greater damage compared to the AK 47, the bomb simply has no time to react due to the speed of the AK47 - magazines of bullets on standby and easily triggered!
For the Bomb:
- Find a match/lighter
- Light the string (dunno the proper term for it) attached
- Time for the bomb to go off depends on the length of the string (LENGTH is crucial - Imagine how much time is wasted if the string is very long like in cartoons!!)
- String burns to the tip
- BOOM!!! ENEMY RIP!
For AK 47:
- Woman picks up the weapon
- Pulls the trigger
- Hundreds of bullets are fired
- ENEMY DIES! GAME OVER - Short and Sweet!
I need to find ways to upgrade my weapons and ammunition but I dont know how. Either do i know how many more lives i have to escape from the everlasting bullets?
Anyone any ideas?Tuesday, 5 May 2009
Job Satisfaction
Reasons:
- My ideas are often or almost always tweaked till they no longer belong to me
- Im put down for things
- Execution for my project is delayed for x reasons yet the culprit pushes the blame to me (instead of herself)
- I have to do something that is OBVIOUSLY someone's job - i meant everyone has their own task and somethings clearly belong to the another person
- Im insulted when it's a clear MISINTERPRETION from that person herself
I seriously dont see any reason in staying on... It's meaningless...
Everyday i just feel depressed, upset and eagerly looking forward to WEEKENDS. I lost myself, my drive and motivation to work. I dont feel appreciated for contributing so much - the small things that make up the big picture are not seen. Everyone sees only the big things that Managment does and the small fries suffer like HELL!
Someone please send me an angel to save me from this plight!!! I dont want to go crazy at the age of 26... Help me...
Wednesday, 29 April 2009
Emotional rattle
Could it be due to work, family, relationships, $$ etc... i really dont know! Maybe it's just because im growing horizontally more each day, which is causing me to be depressed! Life sucks!
At work, I certainly dont feel as close to the team as before, since my HK trip and somehow i have this feeling that people start to question my role in the department. Anyway, no point explaining - im convinced anyhow that I should be the most dispensible in the team. I have thoughts to leave this depressing and demoralising place but something's pulling me back - laziness i think...
For $$ - i guess the best song to describe my feelings is "Money Money Money by ABBA"
I work all night,
I work all day, to pay the bills I have to pay
Ain't it sad
And still there never seems to be a single penny left for me
That's too bad
In love - after a long courtship, i dont know if people still call it LOVE or is it just a habit being together. The best love song that describes how a man should love a woman is none other than "Have you ever really loved a woman - Bryan Adams"
To really love a woman
To understand her - you gotta know it deep inside
Hear every thought - see every dream
N' give her wings - when she wants to fly
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
When you love a woman
you tell herthat she's really wanted
When you love a woman
you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell herthat it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?
To really love a woman
Let her hold you - til ya know how she needs to be touched
You've gotta breathe her - really taste her
Til you can feel her in your blood
N' when you can see your unborn children in her eyes
You know you really love a woman
When you love a woman
you tell her that she's really wanted
When you love a woman
you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that you'll always be together
So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?
You got to give her some faith - hold her tight
A little tenderness - gotta treat her right
She will be there for you, takin' good care of you
Ya really gotta love your woman...
Then when you find yourself lyin' helpless in her arms
You know you really love a woman
When you love a woman
you tell herthat she's really wanted
When you love a woman
you tell her that she's the one
she needs somebody to tell her
that it's gonna last forever
So tell me have you ever really - really really ever loved a woman?
Just tell me have you ever really, really, really, ever loved a woman?
You got to tell me
Just tell me have you ever really,really, really, ever loved a woman?
Im tired... mentally, physically, emotionally... Good night and i hope tomorrow will be a better day.
Sunday, 19 April 2009
Updates
Reasons?
- i have been busy
- I am lazy to pen my thoughts and happenings
- Too many things happening to record all of them
Nonethless, since im awake now and Tat is but playing his games in the living room, i shall use his laptop to rattle some thoughts...
It was a HAPPENING December and Q1 of 2009. Now that the official launch is over, i think i can breathe better at work (although there are still NONSENSE surfacing). Anyway, work aside, life is still going quite well.
Went to Hong Kong to visit Disneyland on my birthday and finally took pictures with Mickey Mouse! Thanks to Tat for this wonderful experience and we actually spent every single cent there, coming home with no HK Dollars left + 2 credit card bills...haha. The bulk of the money was spent on gifts, souvenirs and also LAU PO BING...Yummy Yummy...Carried a whole big bag back but still not enough to dstribute.
The only worse thing was to see Mr. B at Disneyland!! Of all people, why him? Anyway, i didnt or rather couldnt call him (as we were in the q). Hope he didnt see us as well...Unlucky!
Went on shopaholic mood recently as well...bought tops, dresses and the more dresses (maxi) from all over. The best was to get a dress and top from Joop. Didnt even spend a single cent - use mainly vouchers...haha.
I simply enjoy shopping but i need to recover (from the trip) before i spend the spree again. Things will go slower now. Hence i have indulge myself in online spree now - cheaper!!
Let's see when my next entry will come...Take care folks.